Aatm manthan..(आत्म मंथन )

Aaj mandir gayi thi, kuch ansuljhe, ankahe, vicharon ko lekar. oob chuki thi mai, is duniya ke aneko roop dekhkar. Man mai anekanek, ajeebogareeb sawal the, jo jawab maang rahe the, jawab maang rahe the vo aadarsh, jo maa ne sikhaye. Jawaab maang rahe the vo sanskar, jo parivaar se mile.!!!! Kya is sansaar mai ye maayne rakhte hai...??? kya inko apne mai samakar, hum is duniya mai jee sakte hai??? Isi udedbun mai khud ko liye, aaj pahuchi thi mai us ishwar ke dar par jise sab kehte hai ki vo sarvagyani hai, jisko sab taranhaar kehte hai, jo sarva vidhyamaan hai. Phir bhi jisko dhundhne hum, mandir mai hi jaate hai... haan phir bhi usko dhundhne hum, mandir mai jaate hain!!! Aaj nischy tha kara maine, kuch sawalo ke to jawab maangne hai. Jo us sarvagyani, taranhaar, sarvidhyamaan ko hai dene, jise sab parmeshwar maante hai. Kya in mukhauto ki duniyaa mai, ek insaan ka jeena mumkin hain. Kya in kathputliyon ke sang,

Finally after a very nice time at home its the time to return back to college life... well when i was leaving from home it seemed very very depressing....what seemed depressing????...:P..." the thought of returning back to college life"...really i never wanted to return back.... was thinking all those 5 days what will happen if i make some or the other random reasons of not returning back... infact curfew @ Bareilly could have been one of my excuse.... but no chance.. expectations of my parents... their aspirations... my dreams... all these factors mixed with the cost of my RAC ticket forced me to remove all those thoughts from my mind and i started to pack my things,..:(.. ultimately i had to come back... so, met all my relatives...[ not knowing when next i will visit home... during these summer vacations i will be in Hyderabad so very little chance to go home..:(..] ..then was the time to give some instructions to my younger brother... gave him a lecture which i know h