I never desired...

Standing still.. in the dark.. all alone,
Thinking deeply.. on my own...
I knew.. I could handle "every thing",
Be "happy" and even "laugh" and "sing"..
Ready to face "anything" which life would bring,
I was quite confident... that I could face its "sting".
But now.. I don't know... what is the matter???,
I am so weak and my hopes have shattered.
Despite of my sincere effort,
It was me who always got hurt.
But still, I have always tiredlessly tried,
I am quite sure, Really.. I never desired.

"Expectations" are made.. I know,
only from those who are "capable" enough.
But not from people who are now truly weak..
who have lost their "shine" and forgotten their "technique"...
Do you expect those "flowers" to bloom in your garden??
You are quite mistaken, I beg your pardon.
"They" are now.. not what.. you "knew" them to be,
"They" have changed a lot, don't even think to what "degree"!!
Despite of my sincere effort,
It was me who always got hurt.
But still, I have always tiredlessly tried,
I am quite sure, Really.. I never desired.

Many "People" came and went by,
They "influenced" my life, I never deny.
I tried to change myself on their plea,
Some even told me.."to be the change I want to see".
I tried to "reason",.. Not once.. but many times,
My "fault".. I know is that, I never read "between" the lines.
Till now I have "won" and "lost" numerous "battles"..
Of course it's high time now, I am going to break these shackles.
Despite of my sincere effort,
It was me who always got hurt.
But still, I have always tiredlessly tried,
I am quite sure, Really.. I never desired.

Comments

Somasree Choudhury said…
Seems like it's not all imagination.. there's something truly painful deep down inside...spill it out baby..we are always there to sort it out..:)
September 25, 2010 at 11:32 PM
Aditi said…
if its just ur imagination then very nicely penned down but if its real then be what you are...people love u the way u are.
September 26, 2010 at 2:17 PM
Pahadi_Canary said…
hmmm..not all imagination..!!..:(... @ adi..ya I won't change.. Infact I'll try to adjust..
@ somo..I know re.. bas jab control se bahar hoga will spill it out..:P
September 26, 2010 at 7:20 PM
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