Aatm manthan..(आत्म मंथन )

Raah mai chalte hue.. Anginat chehre hain mile.. kuch to naye dost bane.. Bahut se ajnabi reh gaye.. Phir bhi mujhko aaj bhi.. vo ek anjaan chehra yaad hai.. Nahin dikha hai kab se vo.. Phir bhi milne ki aas hai.. lagta hai ki vo aas paas hai!!.. Na jaane kyun??!! Aakhir Kaun hai vo chehra??.. Kya mera us chehre se hai koi rishta??.. Vaise rishtey kabhi banane nahi padte.. vo to yun hi ban jate hai.. Phir bhi mujhko aaj bhi.. vo ek anjaan chehra yaad hai.. Nahin dikha hai kab se vo.. Phir bhi milne ki aas hai.. lagta hai ki vo aas paas hai!!.. Na jaane kyun??!! Maine suna tha is jeevan mai humsafar mil jaatein hai.. Aur kabhi to aisa bhi hota hai.. ki kuch anjane log bhi.. apno se ban jaate hai.. Maine to kabhi ye baat na maani thi.. Phir bhi mujhko aaj bhi.. vo ek anjaan chehra yaad hai.. Nahin dikha hai kab se vo.. Phir bhi milne ki aas hai.. lagta hai ki vo aas paas hai!!.. Na jaane kyun??!! Kisi ajnabi ko yaad rakhna.. Humari to fitrat nahi.. Kisi anjane chehre ko dhoondna.. Apni b

to ma roommate, companion and an adorable friend.. ... Debina Longjam..Its just for you.. Happy Birthday re... now this is a "must" read poetry...:).. एक लड़की हैं वो चिंकी सी.... दिन भर कुछ कुछ बोला करती है.. चिकन की वो दीवानी है, और आलू पर मैडम मरती हैं!!! मैस के खाने से डर लगता है इन्हें, पर मैस मे ही टीवी के सामने मिलती है!! आजकल रातों को सोती नहीं है यह.. क्या करती है??? जरा बूझो तो हम भी जाने...:) मुझे कुछ नहीं आता, कुछ नहीं आता, करते करते.. मिस "Headstrong" बन गयी है ये..:) "Boyfriend" तो चाहिए इनको, पर कोई standard का मिलता नहीं..:( "Options " बहुत है मैडम के पास मैं मगर.. इनको TWITTER के आगे कुछ दिखता नहीं!! अब इनके जलवे हम क्या बयान करे...!!! जन्मदिन है आज इनका... आओ सब मिलकर दुआ करे..:)..:) By...Myself and Geetanjali Kaur ..:)... love ya..debo...

Standing still.. in the dark.. all alone, Thinking deeply.. on my own... I knew.. I could handle "every thing", Be "happy" and even "laugh" and "sing".. Ready to face "anything" which life would bring, I was quite confident... that I could face its "sting". But now.. I don't know... what is the matter???, I am so weak and my hopes have shattered. Despite of my sincere effort, It was me who always got hurt. But still, I have always tiredlessly tried, I am quite sure, Really.. I never desired. "Expectations" are made.. I know, only from those who are "capable" enough. But not from people who are now truly weak.. who have lost their "shine" and forgotten their "technique"... Do you expect those "flowers" to bloom in your garden?? You are quite mistaken, I beg your pardon. "They" are now.. not what.. you "knew" them to be, "They" have changed a lot

aaj pata nahi kaise.. bachpan ke vo pal yaad aa gaye.. sookhi hui in aakhon mai phir nami si la gaye.. Vo swachhand jeevan, vo nirmal sa pyar!! Vo nischhal hasi, kya jeet..aur kya haar..!! Vo mamta ki chaav mai jam kar khilkhilana, Aur kabhi khel khel mai rona rulana.. Vo gudde aur gudiyan ki shadi rachana..!! kabhi doctor, kabhi nurse.. to kabhi enggineer ban jana.. Vo didi ko din bhar ki baatein batana.. Aur bhai se ladkar.. phir usko manana.. Vo bina soche samjhe sawalo se jhoojna.. Aur atpate jawabo ko bhi maan jana.. Vo apni anokhi si duniya mai kho jana!! Aur baaki saari jhanjhaton se bekhabar sa rehna.. Aha!! kya thi zindagi.. kya vo daurr tha.. man mai umang aur jeevan mai josh aur junoon tha.. Bas yun hi aaj.. vo swarnim din yaad aa gaye..!! sookhi hui in aakhon mai phir nami si la gaye..

God created me..gave me the power to create, nurture and transform Made me the one who could bring about any reform.. I have the passion, I have the power, you shudnt underestimate me, I m not just a crepe flower... Though I may not be so precious.. as I m not a pearl.. But I have my own importance.. I am a "Girl".. To love and care, and be influential in my lifetime, To be Hopeful, and enduring be it any time.. To be liable and judicious I was taught from chilhood, For all complicated issues in life I was tutored to 'brood'... Though I may not be so precious.. as I m not a pearl.. But I have my own importance.. I am a "Girl".. I am proud, but respect others along with, and aware of who "she" is, I never seek definition from the person I am with, nor do I expect "them" to read my mind, or stand beside me.. since I think I am quite capable of articulating my needs.. Though I may not be so precious.. as I m not a pearl.. But I have my own i

when i am all alone, when i am on my own.. when i am lonely, or just sitting silently.. then out of nowhere, how can you appear... in my thoughts, and in my fear???.. I wonder.. Is this "nothing"??..is it just one of my "petty" thoughts.. bcoz I often find myself blankly staring the dots.. I have many dreams and also I sumtimes live in them.. I never break those "rules"..though i may often condemn.. But..then out of nowhere, how can you appear... in my thoughts, and in my fear???.. I wonder.. Is this "magic"??.. I ponder over again and again.. bcoz as i see you.. I can get over all my pain.. I think of you.. and even speak to you, you may not even be present there though!!.. But..then out of nowhere, how can you appear... in my thoughts, and in my fear???.. I wonder.. Is this "attraction"??..I thought about that too.. bcoz whatever i think is somehow related to you.. I sing, I dance, I laugh and smile, yeah.. i can even forget you for a

why that happens what we never expect why cant every thing in life be always perfect.. Ofcourse life is complicated i know.. yet we have to live without any woes.. I just wanna know..if someone is having the reason why? we try harder and harder and still find it harder to apply.. "candidness" and "honesty" are now nowhere to be found.. Although we are "independent".. yet we are "bound".. innocent ppl are the only ones to be cheated, and defrauder moves on and on... undefeated.. I just wanna know..if someone is having the reason why? we try harder and harder and still find it harder to apply.. friendship is not "valued" any more.. care, love and respect are standing outside "that" door.. friends are not that "close" now.. they pretend to be the "best" ones though.. I just wanna know..if someone is having the reason why? we try harder and harder and still find it harder to apply.. "Philanthropy" is

बरस रहे घनघोर गगन मे, गुंजित, गर्जित, तर्जित स्वर में!! मन मे, घर मे, गहन कानन मे.. धनि ही क्या, निर्धन के भी मन मे, अविचलित, काले, पागल बादल.. मिटा सभी के बीच की दूरी.. सर्वत्र समानता मान जरुरी.. दे कर कृषक को मेहनत की मजूरी.. बरस रहे है तड-तड य़ू ही.. अविचलित, काले, पागल बादल.. मन मे भर कर मृदुल उमंगें.. नाच रहे सब भूखे सुख से.. पूरे वर्ष का हर्ष जो आया.. संपूर्ण जगत मे हरियाली लाया.. अब तो सपनों की पालकी मे झूल रहा है मेरा मन.. चल रे चल मुझको भी ले चल अब हर घर आँगन.. आहा रे!! अविचलित,काले, पागल बादल..

ek nanhi si kali jab "in" haathon mai aayi thi, tab is albeli anokhi duniya se ekdum bekhabar thi. aapne apne kandhon mai baithakar is duniya se use roobaru karaya, kya hai acha aur kya bura... aap hi ne sikhaya. duniya ki durgam raah mai mujhko khud hi chalna padega, aur us path par thokarein kha kar aage bhi badna padega.. Shayad ye hi soch kar.. ungli pakad kar aapne chalna sikhaya, aur girkar bhi phir se khud uthna sikhaya!! zindagi ek jung hai!! mujhe bhi ladna padega, zindagi ek nadi hai!! mujhko sang behna padega, Shayad ye hi sochkar.. zindagi mai aage badna aapne sikhaya, aur sikhaya zindagi mai dukhon ko khushi se jhelna.. keval jeevan jeena hi jeene ka maksad nahi!! bina sanskaro ke manav, insaan kehne layak nahi... Shayad ye hi soch kar.. apne moolyo par jeevan jeena aapne sikhaya, aur anusashan ka pratham paath bhi aapne padhaya.. har jung hum jeet jaye aisa to mumkin nahi.. par haar maan jana bhi veeron ki fitrat nahi.. shayad ye hi soch kar.. aatmvishvas se jee

Himalaya se unchi hain maa.. kintu pashaan(patthar) si kathorr nahi.. sagar si gahri hain maa.. parantu sagar si khari nahi.. vayu si gatisheel hain maa.. par vayu si adrishya nahi.. sakshaat ishwar ki janani hain maa..kintu ishwar si durlabh nahi.. maa ki koi upma nahi ho sakti.. kyunki maa.. up-maa.. nahi ho sakti..:)

ladkhadate hain kadam, dagmagate se hain hum.. na man mai hai koi umang, na hi jeevan mai hai rang; aur na hi hai antahkaran mai.. koi tarang.. bas hai is jindagi mai.. ek ajeeb si kashmakash.. sab hi to theek tha, kuch hi pal pehle yaha, magar tab sama aur tha, tha saath mai ek kaarvaan... par achanak is samay..koi nahi hai saath mere.. koi nahi hai aaspas.. bas hai is jindagi mai.. ek ajeeb si kashmakash.. hum to akele kabhi na the.. hum to the sab ke sang.. ab na jane ye kya ho gaya, vo kaafila kahan kho gaya??.. kuch bhi na baaki raha.. ho gaye hain gum se sab.. bas hai is jindagi mai.. ek ajeeb si kashmakash.. aji!! aisa tha na kabhi.. hum na the majboor kabhi.. ab achanak kuch hi palon main ye aisa kya ho gaya..?? na hi man isthir raha, na hi ab khud par hai vash.. bas hai is jindagi mai.. ek ajeeb si kashmakash.. aage kya karna hume hai, hai kahan jana hume?? humne kuch socha nahi..aur kuch nishchit nahi, apni manjil ki khabar nahi..raah bhi dikhti nahi.. bas hai is jindagi ma

is jeevan ki asankhya chunautiyon ke beech,.. is bheed mai aankhon ko meech. khadi thi mai pata nahi kab se,... par naa jane kaha se kaise???. achanak man mai ye khayal aaya.. kal hi to aaye the yaha.. nahi pata tha jaenge kaha?. kaise ek anjaan jagah kuch hi samay mai... man mai bas gayi.. apna ghar ho jaise. achanak man mai ye khayal aaya.. haan..anjani si is jagah aayi thi mai.. man mai bahut se sawalo ko samayi thi mai. kaisa hoga vo pal jab puri hogi man ki aas... hoga jindagi mai apne bade hone ka ehsaas. achanak man mai ye khayal aaya.. yaad to aati hai un sab ki bhi.. jinhe chodh aayi hu mai nirmohi si. unki bhi jagah hai alag is dil mai... kya jeena unke bin seekh paungi mai. achanak man mai ye khayal aaya.. rehna ek anjaan jagah par itna bhi aasaan hi.. apno se door rehna humko bhi pasand nahi. humaari bhi rahon mai anginat shool hai... hume bhi pata hai manjil abhi bahut door hai. achanak man mai ye khayal aaya.. mud jana vapas rahon se... fitrat ke anuroop nahi.. naav ko m

well..HI.. writing in my blog after a very long time.. a lot of things have happened in ma life in the past 30-35 days... my stay in hydbd till now has been quite cool... enjoyed a lot... watched movies in multiplex(may be it may seem a normal thing... but its not such a normal thing for me...;)..).. roamed about a lot... made a lot of friends... worked on my project which seems to be complete but is not till the date..:P.. and yup life @ MS.. its very good.. well just as expected.. quite professional environment with no restrictions..really its cool... tomorrow v r going to visit Ramoji film city..exciting na.. but still for that too i was in a dilemma.. laziness u know..:P.. will have to wake up early in the morning to catch the bus on Sunday too..:(..:(..but still will enjoy there .. so basically... m enjoying each and every moment of my stay here.. But along with all that fun missing my family and my friends...

Chal rahi hu safar main yaha mai akeli, ban gayi hai meri jinadagi ek paheli. Na dikhta hai koi mod, na koi oor na koi chhor. Dikhta hai to bas, na khatm hone vala, ek anant, lamba raasta. Jana hai kaha??, shayad ye hai mujhe pata, par kaise hai jana, jara mujhe ye batana. Koi humrahi nahi, koi humnava nahi, koi nahi jise meri raah ka pata rahe..!! Na dikhta hai koi mod, na koi oor na koi chhor. Dikhta hai to bas, na khatm hone vala, ek anant, lamba raasta. Safar ke liye nikalte hue, ek kaafila tha mere saath bh.. Ve sab the saathi mere, kehte th ve hai mere apne..bh !! ab beech raah mai hu khadi, manjil to abhi dur hai.. par na vo saathi kahi hai, aur na vo huzoom hai!! Na dikhta hai koi mod, na koi oor na koi chhor. Dikhta hai to bas, na khatm hone vala, ek anant, lamba raasta. ve sab saath chhodh gaye, ve sab muh mod gaye, is kathin,durgam marg mai mujhe tanha chhodh gaye. Par kab tak mai sochu un sab ke liye, jinke man mai koi jagah nahi mere liye. Ab bas is raah ko dekhu mai, manj

Aaj mandir gayi thi, kuch ansuljhe, ankahe, vicharon ko lekar. oob chuki thi mai, is duniya ke aneko roop dekhkar. Man mai anekanek, ajeebogareeb sawal the, jo jawab maang rahe the, jawab maang rahe the vo aadarsh, jo maa ne sikhaye. Jawaab maang rahe the vo sanskar, jo parivaar se mile.!!!! Kya is sansaar mai ye maayne rakhte hai...??? kya inko apne mai samakar, hum is duniya mai jee sakte hai??? Isi udedbun mai khud ko liye, aaj pahuchi thi mai us ishwar ke dar par jise sab kehte hai ki vo sarvagyani hai, jisko sab taranhaar kehte hai, jo sarva vidhyamaan hai. Phir bhi jisko dhundhne hum, mandir mai hi jaate hai... haan phir bhi usko dhundhne hum, mandir mai jaate hain!!! Aaj nischy tha kara maine, kuch sawalo ke to jawab maangne hai. Jo us sarvagyani, taranhaar, sarvidhyamaan ko hai dene, jise sab parmeshwar maante hai. Kya in mukhauto ki duniyaa mai, ek insaan ka jeena mumkin hain. Kya in kathputliyon ke sang,

Finally after a very nice time at home its the time to return back to college life... well when i was leaving from home it seemed very very depressing....what seemed depressing????...:P..." the thought of returning back to college life"...really i never wanted to return back.... was thinking all those 5 days what will happen if i make some or the other random reasons of not returning back... infact curfew @ Bareilly could have been one of my excuse.... but no chance.. expectations of my parents... their aspirations... my dreams... all these factors mixed with the cost of my RAC ticket forced me to remove all those thoughts from my mind and i started to pack my things,..:(.. ultimately i had to come back... so, met all my relatives...[ not knowing when next i will visit home... during these summer vacations i will be in Hyderabad so very little chance to go home..:(..] ..then was the time to give some instructions to my younger brother... gave him a lecture which i know h