Aatm manthan..(आत्म मंथन )

Kya tha vo daur..Wah! Kya thi Zindagi.. kaise itni jaldi nikal gaye vo 4 saal, yeh hai aboojh paheli.. Vo aankh khulte hi.. mobile mai GT ke msg ka milna.. tab timetable ek aankh se dekh kar.. dubara bistar pe gir jana.. Pher aaram se neend puri kar, sabko jagana.. debo ka vo roj roj class na jane ke bahane banana.. Vo bhag bhag kar mess mai nashta karne jaana.. Aur teacher ke class mai pahuchne ke 15 min baad class pahunch pana.. Vo entry maarte hi gud morning ke saath teacher ko ek smile dena.. taaki agar vo naraj bh ho.. tab bhi enter karne se roke na!!:-D.. Pher andar baith kar thoda bahut samajhne ki koshish karna.. na samajh aaye toh jo kan mai pade vo bina samjhe note karte rehna.. Kyunki chahe jo bhi ho.. hum ko minor bh toh dene hi hai.. aakhirkaar aaye toh college mai hum degree lene hai..:P pher kabhi boring se lecture mai baar baar ubasi lena.. ya jyada neend aaye toh teacher ka dimaag kha lena.. Vo submissions mai record tod Bunk pe Bunk lagana.. Aur fine lag jaane par HOD

I don't complain, I don't shout.. I believe everyone without raising a single doubt.. Does that mean I am feeling less.. I am just being polite!! is it so difficult to guess?? I do feel everything be it sweet or bitter I am confident, but sometimes I too fear.. having lot of friends though.. I do feel lonely sometimes.. My life is also not so easy.. I also face tides.. I see, I hear, I wander here and there, And when I am hurt, my eyes are too full of tears.. I understand there are decisions in life which are very tough, But when I say something is right I am sure enough.. I know I said I could control my emotions, But I realise now.. I cannot fullfill all those preconceived notions!! Now what should I do!! if I want to live my own life.. But with my rules, my conditions, without any strife. I want to make mistakes, I want to learn from them.. May be that is not right, but its not a crime to be condemned.. I can act foolishly when situations are critical.. After all I am no God

People are ready, set is the goal.. As days go by expectations are getting more.. We try harder and harder with our heart and soul.. We turn every stone, and knock every door.. Some are there to give us their support.. Some are even there to cut our throat.. We start doubting everyone be a friend or a foe.. We stand all alone, belonging to a family though!! Then comes the result we either make through or fail.. We are frightened, thinking.. whether we'll sink or sail.. If its the former we bloom as lilly in may..:).. Be it the latter, we are full of dismay.. Then we hope.. to stand up again.. to try harder and win again.. But here again we should not forget the man who has nothing can still have faith..